A Longer Update

I have to push myself to write. 1,  because I suck at writing and 2, because it is how I will be graded.

It's been a long time, so I think this post is going to just have to take the form of word vomit/free writing.

*Turns on chillout* Ahem.

Two of the biggest things I need to work on this semester is not procrastinating and pushing through when I am struggling so that I can actually achieve some real growth. It's as if I can feel the wheels slowing mentally, and I am just doing the bare minimum to get by.

But that's probably the biggest question mark for the semester too; what the hell do I need to do exactly to be doing more? This question is exactly why I've been so hesitant to reach out to people everywhere, to reach out to those folks who would help me the second I ask. I don't know what the hell I should be asking.

The only goal I have achieved so far is figuring out my schedule. This just happened last Friday. I've been working on this since the end of August.

There have been a few concrete things that have been rolling around in my head pertaining to how I could be learning more. I like lists, so I will make a random one, with no order whatsoever:
-Planning and saving to go to Europe again (currently making me super excited)
-Reading about socialism, communism, anarchy, and other radical things, because I haven't yet. Starting with Grace Lee Boggs books
-Trying to contact all the Green Food orgs that I have been meaning to, and actually getting to talk to them. I feel like this will put some pep back in my project.
-Read more!
-Save money
-Figure out textbooks for learning Japanese and Spanish

This is a working list.

I had more to write but fucking tumblr....damnit. Maybe tomorrow.