Saturday, October 27, 2012
Monday, October 15, 2012
Note to Self
Write a very long, very detailed email letter to professors at McDaniel, letting them know how much I have grown and what I have been up to..
A Longer Update
I have to push myself to write. 1, because I suck at writing and 2, because it is how I will be graded.
It's been a long time, so I think this post is going to just have to take the form of word vomit/free writing.
*Turns on chillout* Ahem.
Two of the biggest things I need to work on this semester is not procrastinating and pushing through when I am struggling so that I can actually achieve some real growth. It's as if I can feel the wheels slowing mentally, and I am just doing the bare minimum to get by.
But that's probably the biggest question mark for the semester too; what the hell do I need to do exactly to be doing more? This question is exactly why I've been so hesitant to reach out to people everywhere, to reach out to those folks who would help me the second I ask. I don't know what the hell I should be asking.
The only goal I have achieved so far is figuring out my schedule. This just happened last Friday. I've been working on this since the end of August.
There have been a few concrete things that have been rolling around in my head pertaining to how I could be learning more. I like lists, so I will make a random one, with no order whatsoever:
-Planning and saving to go to Europe again (currently making me super excited)
-Reading about socialism, communism, anarchy, and other radical things, because I haven't yet. Starting with Grace Lee Boggs books
-Trying to contact all the Green Food orgs that I have been meaning to, and actually getting to talk to them. I feel like this will put some pep back in my project.
-Read more!
-Save money
-Figure out textbooks for learning Japanese and Spanish
This is a working list.
I had more to write but fucking tumblr....damnit. Maybe tomorrow.
It's been a long time, so I think this post is going to just have to take the form of word vomit/free writing.
*Turns on chillout* Ahem.
Two of the biggest things I need to work on this semester is not procrastinating and pushing through when I am struggling so that I can actually achieve some real growth. It's as if I can feel the wheels slowing mentally, and I am just doing the bare minimum to get by.
But that's probably the biggest question mark for the semester too; what the hell do I need to do exactly to be doing more? This question is exactly why I've been so hesitant to reach out to people everywhere, to reach out to those folks who would help me the second I ask. I don't know what the hell I should be asking.
The only goal I have achieved so far is figuring out my schedule. This just happened last Friday. I've been working on this since the end of August.
There have been a few concrete things that have been rolling around in my head pertaining to how I could be learning more. I like lists, so I will make a random one, with no order whatsoever:
-Planning and saving to go to Europe again (currently making me super excited)
-Reading about socialism, communism, anarchy, and other radical things, because I haven't yet. Starting with Grace Lee Boggs books
-Trying to contact all the Green Food orgs that I have been meaning to, and actually getting to talk to them. I feel like this will put some pep back in my project.
-Read more!
-Save money
-Figure out textbooks for learning Japanese and Spanish
This is a working list.
I had more to write but fucking tumblr....damnit. Maybe tomorrow.
Sunday, October 14, 2012
A Short Update
I am feeling slightly overwhelmed. I don't believe that this is a bad thing, it's simply a process I have to get through.
I think that my exhibition will be about my struggles to adjust to my new school and schedule, and my upcoming clarity and hopes for future focuses.
My backup plan is to continue film studies at RIC. I will be sending in my app this weekend.
My backup to my backup is to become a stripper.
Goddess help me.
I think that my exhibition will be about my struggles to adjust to my new school and schedule, and my upcoming clarity and hopes for future focuses.
My backup plan is to continue film studies at RIC. I will be sending in my app this weekend.
My backup to my backup is to become a stripper.
Goddess help me.
Monday, October 8, 2012
Reflections and Resources
So I did terrible at trying not to procrastinate. I will try to be better at it this week. Exhibitions are coming up real quick and I'm nervous. I'm trying not to let the idea into my head that I'm all talk. If I could actually just get these first conversations set up, I think it'll give me the boost I need to keep moving forward.
Another thing that I would like to change about myself right now is that fact that I don't read enough. I haven't read nearly enough social justice theory, or anything for that matter. I'm going to try to stay away from bell hooks for a while, because that has been on overkill, but I will hopefully be able to read Grace Lee Boggs, and other books. If folks who are reading could leave comments suggesting books, I will make that my official reading list for the school year.
I at least have a to-do list made up, and I have time tomorrow at the library to start doing at least part of it, so no excuses!
Another thing that I would like to change about myself right now is that fact that I don't read enough. I haven't read nearly enough social justice theory, or anything for that matter. I'm going to try to stay away from bell hooks for a while, because that has been on overkill, but I will hopefully be able to read Grace Lee Boggs, and other books. If folks who are reading could leave comments suggesting books, I will make that my official reading list for the school year.
I at least have a to-do list made up, and I have time tomorrow at the library to start doing at least part of it, so no excuses!
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